Monday, September 26, 2011

What Parents Don't Know and Thinks Everything is Ok (In the begging)

I had a parent who was so serious about me and my ADHD meds. But honestly what parent doesn't bugg the situation. I can remember the first day I went to school on medication.  More than at least 10 people said "Hey Joshua whats wrong with you, is everything alright?". I would give them a fake happy smile so that they could go on about there business. I barely even had the tolerance to respond. I felt like such a zombie, or at least thats how I could describe it. I constantly thought about going home. JUST AWAY FROM PEOPLE! The simplest things in school would Piss me off, but on a regular day I could care less. I barely could be around my regular crowd of  friends with-out being so annoyed. I literally wanted to snap on anybody. When I ate lunch , nothing had a great taste, it was as if the food was plastic. I didn't even have a appetite anyways. My whole life felt blank and useless. I couldn't help but to think about the day I was lied to about going to see the doctor, and thinking I was going in for a regular check up, but instead for a testing to see if I was AdHd. I got home I cried, but honestly it seemed like  had no reason for crying, I just Felt upset for no reason. When the medicine began to ware off, I thought on how could I get around this everyday without causing such a problem in my household.........All I kept saying is " WHY ME". Why cant I just have a normal life. It seemed this was another problem to a growing teenagers life on top of living in peer pressured world. TO BE CONTINUED

4 comments:

  1. Hi Joshua, I am a parent of an 11 year old boy who has ADHD. I am reading your blog because you posted a link to it on the FB page for A Mom's View of ADHD. I really like what I've read so far in your first post! Keep it up - I think that everyone really could use a fresh perspective. I, for one, am very interested in hearing not only how you feel on medication, but how you perceive yourself as a person who is challenged and living with ADHD. If you haven't done so already, I would like to recommend a documentary film called "ADD and Loving It." http://totallyadd.com/totallyadd-loving-it-trailer/

    Good luck with your blog!! Can't wait to read more and thanks for sharing!

    JL (Mom of ADHD child)

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  2. omgosh thankyou so much, you dont understand how much your feedback made me happy , :) but i will definitly take a look at the video. and i will definitly keep writing and feel free to ask me any questions, tell ppl about me thanksss!

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  3. Hi Joshua,

    You left a comment on my blog, http://www.YouMeADD.org

    I agree with Julia -- nice to see you on the web. Keep it up. I'm sure you will speak for many people out there.

    re: medication. I'm sorry to hear that your first experience wasn't a good one (sounds that way, anyway). Please know that it can sometimes take a while to get the right dosage (and right type among the many choices). Few people get the best effect from the first try.

    Also, remember that the medication can change how you act and perceive the world (otherwise, why take medication?) . And it can take time (and education) to adjust.

    Perhaps, though, you are the "life of the party" type, and your friends might complain if you stop entertaining them. ;-)

    I heard this from many adults with ADHD, too, but most of them eventually decide that it's their life. They can't exist to entertain their friends. They need to focus on their own goals and ambitions. And sometimes medication is a part of that. So is eating well, getting sleep, and exercise -- all the things that can be challenging to college students especially!

    Take care and looking forward to hearing more from you,

    Gina Pera, author
    Is It You, Me, or Adult A.D.D.?

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  4. Hey Mrs. Pera , That's exactly what I'm going to be ending my story with and describing as I continue to blog. I just wanna show other teenagers that by them reading this blog they can realize the same thing I had to by seeing my difficulties that might be similar to theres. But most importantly Thanks so much for your feedback. I really appreciate it

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